So today I write in all my journals, Yay!

This won't matter but I feel like writing. Halloween is the Hap Happ Happiest Day of the year. A holiday that kicks the ass of others by far.

Someone ever so special and ever so meaning everything passed on Halloween Ten Years ago today. I can't believe that it has been that long, that it is all so vivid still. I can't believe their streangth, and the way that person selflessly hung on. I can't believe the love and adoration I still feel. I can't believe theyre gone.

To this day I think of them all the time, and weigh my decision based on what would make them proud or displeased with me. Too bad I tend to make the opposite decision anyways.

To this day I love you, youre everything, and I can't wait until we are together again. I cant wait to share my love and let you know how wonderful you are. How different would things be if you were still here, and i still held your hand. Youre the grounding force of my life and I realize many many things in the few hours i have been awake. Things I will change, even tho your glances are from so far, youre still the beauty i aspire to, and I love you with more then my inner heart can contain.

You're the epitomy of beauty holding all my hopes and dreams, and I miss you so very much.